Monday, May 18, 2009

Doom and Gloom

Today is one of those days where I feel just off.
I didn't start that way, but as my morning progressed, so did my off mood.
Woke up and ran for 20 minutes on the treadmill.
Took a shower.
Got dressed, but didn't do my hair.
Ran an errand.
Came home.
Started finishing getting ready.
This is where it started.
I hated what I had on, so I changed.
Put my make-up on, but felt ugly.
Started doing my hair, but it wasn't doing what I wanted.
Today was my preschool graduation.
I wanted to look perfect, feel perfect and for the day to flow perfectly.
I think when I set my expectations high, I'm disappointed when I don't feel things are going well, or working out the way I want them to.
In the end, everything went well, even though I still didn't feel as good as I wanted to.
There was singing, signing, more singing, some thoughts by me, pictures, gifts, treats, swimming, eating, chatting, and good bying (is that even spelled right?).
What was there to feel ugly about?
I hate days like this.
I wish I never had any, but I do.
I'm not one of those girls who has it all together all the time.
I wish I was.
Those that think I do, I have to say, I'm very good at pretending.
Just don't look upstairs.
It's scary up there!

9 comments:

*Katie May* said...

I hate days like that too. We are all good at pretending thing are good sometimes :) Gaige forgot his goodie cup. He was ad so I need to come get it sometime when I am out :) Thanks for EVERYTHING Kasey! Gaige grew soo much this year!

Jenny Knudsen said...

I hear ya sista! It is really horrible to feel that way. I hope you feel better today and just know that I think you are beautiful!

Stacia said...

OMG that is so me lately! I'm glad I'm not the only one. Sorry you had one of those days. Hopefully you'll have a better days soon!

Anonymous said...

A dirty upstairs = a sane mommy...at least at my house.

Brittney Smith said...

I think we all feel like this at times. Loved how you laid it out straight!

Rich Angie said...

That was really honest, thanks for sharing. No really! It makes it easier to connect with others when we know they are not the superwoman they pretend they are...and we all do it! Love ya!

Jade said...

I love that you can be honest about that. I still wanna check out your upstairs though :) !! I wish none of us ever had to feel that way. You would think with all the hard work of being wife, mother, woman, student, teacher, etc. we could at least have the luxury of feeling good about ourselves, everyday. But, apparently feeling that way is something that no one gets away from.

Here's to happier days!! :)

heidi said...

seriously - those are the worst days. I'm sorry for you today. Blame the hair on the humidity... that is what i'm doing! :) Hope tomorrow is better!

Travis and Tyra Russell said...

Oh Kasey, I think we all have those days once in awhile and anyone who says they don't, we know they are lying. Lol! I wish we could go without feeling like that! But I know it helps me remember yeah I know I am not perfect but I am doing my best and know that is good enough for me and my loved ones. I think you are pretty awesome Kasey! :) Don't worry about the upstairs, I have plenty of those kind of scary rooms! LOL!