I try very hard to be mindful of the feelings and needs of those in my life that I love and care for.
Family, friends, VT sisters, neighbors, whomever it may be.
Those thoughts and feelings are not always reciprocated back.
And it hurts.
I'm tired of feeling hurt and sad over it.
But I don't know how to shut off those feelings to not care or push it aside.
I don't know how to let go of those in my life who for whatever reason don't feel the same way.
Weather they say so or not...
Actions speak louder than words.
I don't need anyone to tell me.
Family who do more for others than they do for family hurts.
Holding onto friendships that don't want to be held makes me sad and a little lonley.
Everyone likes to know they are loved and thought about.
It's the little things.
An email.
A Text.
A phone call.
FB message.
Unexpected visit.
Comment on a blog.
A little note.
A treat.
QT drinks.
I like to be shown I'm loved.
That I've been thought about.
That my love and friendship is worth something.
And it doesnt' have to be gifts.
It's just not enough for me to "know".
Even if we're family.
I hold onto things I should let go because I remember how it hurt.
Important things and events in our lives that went overlooked...purposly or not...are remembered and forever imbedded in my mind.
I have tried to step into their shoes and see things through their eyes, but I would never overlook those important things so it's hard for me to take that step in another's shoes.
So please, if be mindful.
We all want to feel the love.
Take the time to really show those around you how you feel, even if it's out of your comfort zone.
You never know how it can make someones day.
Even if your life is hard and you're going through your own trials.
Someone else is too and a little life lift just may be what they need.
And if you're ready to be done, just say so and don't leave this open ended emptiness.
I'd much rather hear that then to be left with the unknown of thinking that I did something wrong.
That's all.
7 comments:
I am so sorry Kasey. I know exactly how you feel and it does suck. I will never understand how people take friendships for granted. They are special and need to be nurtured. Don't give up. You deserve to have all the love in the world. :)
Ditto to Jenny! Life sure is hard some times! Know that I do think of you! If you ever need an ear I'm 'hear' for ya!
Yeah people can be real lame sometimes and aren't as good friends to you as you are to them, moving away as opened up my eyes to see who my real friends are and the ones that just don't make the effort.
You don't know me, but your hubby does... I went to High School with him. But anyways, when I read your blog I realize how alike we are. I say amen to what you post. I just wanted to send you {{{HUGS}}} b/c I know I would want them! BTW... you have a super cute family! ;)
I think that you are an amazing lady! Keep your chin up and keep being your great self!
Thanks everyone! I don't know what my problem is! Better day today!
I sure love you and all that you do for me as a friend. You are my golden girl! My shining star! A true friend and I thank your momma for raising such an incredible person. I thank YOU for being my friend. Love you to pieces!
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